Christmas is here. I don't believe everything you supposedly want us to believe in you know? Jesus wasn't even born in December... why do we celebrate it in December? There is a great deal of spirit of giving during this time. Why don't people know you want us to be giving all year around? Why do people feel so religious around this time of year? Why am i writing to you right now? I feel like I owe a great deal of thanks to someone, and I feel sometimes, like tonight, I owe those thanks to You. For my friends. For the friends who entertain the shit out of me, who love me, who share with me, who keep in touch with me, who listen. For the family, that regardless of all the gossip and distance between us, we someone manage to give each other a hard time if you cant make it to the Christmas table together. Because we care and we want to see your ass there! I am thankful for them all. I am thankful for blessing of education without which I would not feel so horrible about the world every day and it's evils. More importantly, I am not oblivious to them. But in turn, I am thankful for the kindness I see, even with simple gestures like holding the door open for the person behind them. I know I give you a hard time. I don't always have faith. I think I just have less faith in the people who have turned Catholicism into this absurd paternalistic, gay bashing, anti abortion political religion rather than an all encompassing love, forgiving and understanding religion. And maybe I have it screwed up, maybe I am just a more spiritual person than a religious person but I want to let you know I haven't let you go completely. I want you to know I still feel you all around me during this time. Merry Christmas.